It was an obstacle or hurdle sort of a day – a day quite unlike any other I’ve had in years. I arrived at school at 7:15 this morning to an empty space – the space where my trailer used to be. This trailer was given to me 10 years ago when my percussion ensemble ZOOM! began traveling quite a bit. A very nice and supportive parent saw the challenges of moving so many instruments and out of the kindness of his heart, handed me a license plate, the pink slip, and registration. This VERY trailer has moved 100s of instruments to countless concerts where we were able to share our music. It became a part of the ensemble. For the past 5 years, it moved all of the steel drums (OK – most) and xylophones at times. Finding a space large enough for the 6 bass 55 gallon oil drums can be problematic.
So, this morning as my son and I rounded the corner towards the 100 building, I noticed that the space where my trailer was parked seemed ‘odd’ or ‘out of sorts’ and then after I blinked a few times – I realized – the space was EMPTY. My pulse raced, my heart pounded through my chest, and tears came – it was gone. Gone. The trailer was taken. In the space where it had been, the wheel blocks sat quietly, all by themselves and on the ground was a broken part of a lock. The police said bolt cutters were used.
…and so it started….police were called, I texted/talked with students, people were as upset as was – and are/am.
People might see it as just a trailer- but it was the one object that was always present to get us to our next audience.
I realized quickly that I had to compartmentalize the situation – I had a dept. meeting to run, students to teach, and computer issues to address….and so one step, after another, I moved forward. Into computer programs that seemed to be unresolved and 36 FANTASTIC composers in Music Comp 2 that were begging to compose, but couldn’t log in with their credentials – and if they could log on they couldn’t open a program. Ugh..hmmm…pause…think….. Fortunately the IT team arrived and we are crossing our fingers that all will be well by tomorrow. Please.
SO – my quote – was a quote that I had on the walls of my room in high school and moved to my college dorm with me….and still is ever-present in my mind: “Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off of the goal.” So all day long – I moved the obstacles – metaphorically, intellectually, and literally, as at one point in my mind’s eye I wrestled it to the ground and pinned it to the outside of my room. Then I was able to look at the students, breathe, step over the hurdles, and find the meaning of the day with the kindness of these fantastic young adults in my room….
and so my goal was to do just that – even though everything around me wanted to pull me out and far away – Goal achieved. I let it all go to find the kindness in my room through wonderful students! Success!